have stood by me through the good times and the bad… I Love You!

Went to the Zoo the other day (ya know…family reunion thing) and I snapped this random shot of a Hummingbird over by the Baboons. (gosh seems like just yesterday they were just babies) Anyways I had to share, for being such a quick, last minute shot, I loved the way it turned out!

Seven years. Living, fighting, surviving, and sometimes falling. It’s me…it’s who I am, take it or leave it. I pray, I plead, I cry each and every day but I will not surrender. I deserve it and I will continue to fight for, The Gift of Life….My Life!

I’m depressed.
Not the “woe is me” kind of depressed
but more of the “reality sucks” depressed.
I was going through some pictures and came across this one:

you remember it don’t you? I had originally posted it in November. Now I knew I had put on a few pounds over the Holidays, but imagine my shock when I compared it to a more recent picture:

So now you know what I have to do?
It is the only way I will break out of this depression…
and besides I will feel so much better in the long run!! I always say I’m gonna do it, I just never follow through. This year will be different, I’m determined!!
It won’t be easy but here it goes;
My New Years Resolution for 2008 is to not compare before and after pictures!

I just realized I had never posted this…it is one of my first and one of my favorites.

Did you ever go to bed at night
Not wanting to see the morning light
Wondering how to ease the pain
Knowing you can’t see the sun
Through the clouds and the rain

Living in a private storm
Left betrayed and standing all alone
Words so fierce, they cut like a knife
Piercing my heart, changing my life
Waiting for the clouds to pass me by
Absorbing the pain, I held my head high

Unable to see I’d forsaken my pride
My body reacting from all held inside
Dreams…of surviving to see the rainbow
Are now visions forgotten, it was time to let go
The storm since passed revealing Blue Skies
The beauty though masked by the rain in my eyes

Sounds of thunder echo in my ears
Drowning in pain I try to cope with my fears
Surrounded by pain of heartache and gloom
In search of that rainbow so my life can resume
Existing…with hopes the rain will soon clear my eyes
So I too, can see the beauty of the sun and Blue Skies