I dreamed of him long ago…
as a little girl, as a young adult, as a woman
He was in my every thought, my every breath, my every being
A man, just one man who would love me unconditionally
He would adore the overbite I had grown so conscious of
He would laugh at the jokes no one else seemed to hear
He would take pride in walking by my side
knowing I could talk faster than I could walk

I dreamed of him long ago…
A man, just one man who would love me unconditionally
He would share the happiness life brought my way
He would share the joy of raising my kids
He would encourage me to seek my dreams, no longer just dream them

I dreamed of him long ago…
A man who could take the worst of times and
give me the courage I so desperately needed to carry on
A man who could dry my tears in the darkest of the night
hold my hand when I feel so alone
stand up for me when I’m down on my knees

I dreamed of him long ago…
as a little girl, as a young adult, as a woman
He was in my every thought, my every breath, my every being
A man, just one man who would love me unconditionally
I dreamed, I prayed to no avail…
There was no such man who walked this earth
I found love, conditional love
I longed for something, someone, that did not exist
My dreams remained that, dreams

I had lost the courage and strength to carry on
The hand I held in the darkest of the night
did not wipe the tears from my face
it was the weapon that caused them
When I was down on my knees
the only person left standing was the one who put me there
I was accepting, in my confusion I believed I had it all
Living the American dream of materialism
Never though, in those times of anguish
did I forget my dream
The dream I carried in my heart and soul all those years
A dream or fate…I will never know
Through good times and bad, I held on
to what little hope I had

His blood may not be as thick as yours
He may dance to a different beat
His eyes may not see as yours
For this is not your dream, it is mine (continue)

I dreamed of him long ago…
This man who was in my every thought, my every breath, my every being
was now, by my side
He holds my hand in the darkest of the night
He dries my tears in times of sorrow
I am loved~ unconditionally
I am his Princess

My insecurities are precious in his eyes
He marvels at my ability to talk faster than I walk
He not only hears my silly jokes
he shares with me a humor perhaps only we understand
He shares with me the happiness life brings
and an unconditional love for my kids
He encourages me when I’m down
never giving me the option of giving up
He is my dream. He completes me
He is in my every thought, my every breath, my every being

Together we will make it through these trying times
We will, as I did as a child, hold on to our dreams
knowing dreams do come true
We ask for nothing more than your love and support along this journey
reminding you

Our blood may not be as thick as yours
We may dance to a different beat
Our eyes may not see as your
But bear in mind
Our blood is just as rich
Our dance just as beautiful
Our eyes do see a future
They see a dream, our dream

Did you ever go to bed at night
Not wanting to see the morning light
Wondering how to ease the pain
Knowing you can’t see the sun
Through the clouds and the rain

Living in a private storm
Left betrayed and standing all alone
Words so fierce, they cut like a knife
Piercing my heart, changing my life
Waiting for the clouds to pass me by
Absorbing the pain, I held my head high

Unable to see I’d forsaken my pride
My body reacting from all held inside
Dreams…of surviving to see the rainbow
Are now visions forgotten, it was time to let go
The storm since passed revealing Blue Skies
The beauty though masked by the rain in my eyes

Sounds of thunder echo in my ears
Drowning in pain I try to cope with my fears
Surrounded by pain of heartache and gloom
In search of that rainbow so my life can resume
Existing…with hopes the rain will soon clear my eyes
So I too, can see the beauty of the sun and Blue Skies

God will never give to you
more than you can bear
Hold these words close at heart
when life seems so unfair

Know you’ll never be alone
I’ll be right by your side
And when your eyes can’t see the light
let me be your guide

Embrace the strength you possess
and carry it with you
In those times you ask “why me”
remember to count your blessings too

When this journey’s over
Cherished all you’ve gained
For it’s your courage and inspiration
that will ease anothers pain

I Love You!!
Mom

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Beads of sweat pouring down
It’s time to mutilate your crown
Don’t let the pain interfere
Your brain has locked into gear

Madness grows deep within
Blood stains glisten on your skin
Life is waiting, it’s getting late
You’re stuck in hell with no escape

Steadily trembling from fatigue
Don’t give in now.. breathe damn it, breathe
Your body stagnate in your bed
Visions of hell replay in your head

I tell you that I understand
I reach out and take your trembling hand
Let our minds and souls unite
You felt the pain that fills my life

Walls are slowly moving in
revealing tales of where I’ve been
In search of what I call my own
in this makeshift world I call home

No place to lie my battered head
no promises of a warm soft bed
No kids to stand by my side
guilt prevails invading my mind

Embracing only memories
of self respect, of dignity
The only thing left to hold
are dreams that linger in my soul

What lies ahead a mystery
my only hope…being free

I then saw a light shining through
Beyond these tears I saw it was you
Had a prayer been answered from up above
Surrounding me now was the gift of love
You took my hand, you held it tight
You promised to stand by me
Through this lonely fight
Integrity wounded, emotions unclear
Do I take your hand…where do I go from here
Overcome with love I began to feel
Your intentions clearly uncompromised and real

You shared with me of days gone by
How you once like me sat alone and cried
Pride weighing me down as I try to stand
I put it aside to take your hand
I reached out to you, you held me tight
You lifted my soul, you showed me the light

Though the tunnel, still full of stumbling stones
You let me know I wasn’t alone
You renewed my faith, you saw that need
Because of your love, I continue my journey
Knowing I will succeed

The light I know may sometimes dim
I may fall down time and time again
But I’ll stand up strong until I reach the end

When I look back at that path I walked through
I’ll remember your strength, I’ll remember your love
I’ll remember I made it because of you